Sunday, September 25, 2011

Pushing God Around

Thanks, as always, Phyllis
A few days ago, I received this Facebook message from a friend:
Wishing you the sweetest, most joyous, healthiest and most undramatic of years to come....  I would offer a prayer that you be inscribed for a good year but I think you've already pushed God out of the way and written it in yourself! (It's okay; I have it on good authority that God likes being pushed around by the likes of you.)
Yes, I suppose that in an effort to change the course of the rest of my life, I did push God around a bit during this last year.  (For any new readers out there, here’s the backstory:  Diagnosed in August of 2010 with a BRCA2 genetic mutation that significantly increases my lifetime risk of both breast and ovarian cancer, I underwent two major and potentially life-saving surgeries in 5771:  a total hysterectomy in December and a prophylactic bilateral mastectomy in July.)

Until my friend pointed it out, though, I never thought of my decision as a tussle with God.  Quite the opposite, in fact.  As I responded to him: 
As much as I may have pushed God out of the way to inscribe myself, She's been here with me throughout this entire ordeal.  Wishing you an equally terrific, happy, healthy and undramatic year.
And a shana tova u'metukah (a good and sweet year) to you, too, loyal readers.  See you in 5772…or maybe sooner!